artistunknown 2020-03-04 19:44:52

I look forward to it every year ;)

artistunknown 2020-03-04 23:19:39

I thought it would be easier to find jobs here because there's so many more jobs available. Turns out I was wrong lol

I'll get things to work out eventually, some way

artistunknown 2020-03-04 23:22:07

25 year olds unite

artistunknown 2020-03-05 22:31:00

more than 25 hopefully lol

artistunknown 2020-03-06 06:03:32

You posted a few times last year on my 10th anniversary post, which was from 2018 :p

Technically I was really only working the full time job, I think there was only one shift from my other job that I worked on the weekend in addition to the full time job, but after doing it I remembered it wasn't even worth it because the hours were long, hard, and the pay was worse, so I was like "fuck that". I stayed on call though, in case I ever felt the urge to clean again lol. I almost cleaned after a Donald Trump rally, but they had everything blocked off so it was impossible to get into the building, even as an employee, so I just went home. That shit was chaotic, would've been a good story to tell though lol.

Though I guess I technically was also working more than full time anyways 'cause some weeks were over 40 hours ;)

Don't worry, even when I was only working 1-2 days a week it felt like I had no time, just from all the time I had to spend in transit, and sleeping, and then recovering from work, plus depression. Never really wanted to do anything. I got better at it as time went on, but still didn't get nearly as much creative stuff done as I could have.

It was the dream diet from hell unfortunately :)

Any time I eat more than a little bit of tomato or garlic or onion my acid reflux immediately flares up and I hate it. I can still eat tacos though without issue so it's not much of a problem at all B)

I've never fully tried eating better for an extended period of time, but the times I did I did feel a bit better, but I chalked that up to just actually having variety of food and not having to worry about not being able to eat. It's also harder to try and get on some kind of strict diet right now (or really any time in the past) because I don't control when grocery trips are, nor do I have a ton of money to spend on food, although I am aware you can make some pretty nice stuff every day for about $20 a week, so if I ever get to live on my own, or have my own vehicle then I'll certainly be trying that.

Thanks man! So far 2020 is absolutely off to a worse start, but I've got so much knowledge and potential ability locked inside me now that could be used to make things the best they can be, it just takes a little drive, and hopefully some day soon I'll get that drive. At the very least, I gotta pay my phone bill in like a week so I better get cracking on getting the money for that lol.

Although sometimes I've considered just cancelling it since I don't use my phone service too much, but I need it on the off chance that a job actually calls me to come in for an interview or something, plus the fact that my sister put my phone number down as an emergency contact for my niece's school, so I gotta have it for that as well. Feels like a waste of money though since I'm only ever using a few MB of data each month since I hardly leave the house now, and that's money that could be going toward something else. Ah well.

That song is absolutely relevant, thank you for sharing ;) I sometimes forget you rap because it seems like whenever you post stuff it's always like 30 things at once so they all just kinda flood everything else out of my feed and I never check lol. I remember wanting to make a beat for one of your a capellas before, I should probably still do that ;)

I used way too many emotes in this, starting to feel like a white teen girl lol

artistunknown 2020-12-11 09:55:09

Dammit Cyberdevil, I had completely forgotten about this lol

Now I have to remember what all of this is in response to, otherwise I'll have to read the whole conversation!!!

Nope, it was actually in the building. It's the biggest stadium in Orlando Florida so it could handle a trump rally lol

Yeah, it's all a matter of will power and how good you are at taking care of yourself, both physically and mentally, and how good you are at recognizing when you're in a funk and can get out of it.

Yeah, I've been pretty much avoiding acidic foods altogether for the past several months, and the acid reflux doesn't happen anymore... Until I have one of those foods again. In fact, it seems like I'm even more succeptible to it now than ever, like pizza wouldn't cause it before, but now it does sometimes. I can still eat spicy foods all I want though so everything's good.

The one thing that bothers me is my constant gas and bloating, I can't remember a day in the past couple years where I wasn't bloated, and I don't even think it's a diet thing since there have been times where I've drastically changed my diet and it still persisted, though maybe I just didn't do it long enough.

I do eat a lot of gassy foods and drink soda, so it certainly isn't helping. The soda's easy to cut out, especially when I'm super tight on funds, but it is comforting. I pretty much only eat home made burritos every day, cause the ingredients are cheap and the beans are a great source of fiber, which I need since I've been so constipated for the last couple years, and it has recently gotten better, though the other issues have not.

I don't remember how long ago the last response before this was, but I've been living with my brother and sister in law and their two kids since June.

Things were good at first, because it was new, but then things got worse over time because lack of communication, but things have been pretty okay recently for the most part, after things blew up and we were forced to communicate. I'll probably describe the situation in full when I make a post talking about the year as a whole, but all that matters is things are fine now, and they'll likely continue to be fine as long as I don't snap, and maybe they'll even get better if I can manage to focus and put the effort toward getting there.

My phone bill is actually super cheap compared to most, but though apparently it was even the cheapest offered by my provider, still more expensive than what you're describing though lol.

I actually upgraded my phone service earlier this week to the mist expensive plan they have, cause I've been having to use my phone for the internet more and more over the past month, so I needed a truly unlimited data plan, not this bullshit "unlimited" plan where you only get 5 gigs of high speed data and then it slows down to an unusable speed. Even then, the unlimited plan is only $50 a month, and since I've been making more money lately from taking more surveys and doing work for Chris, I can afford it.

Unfortunately upgrading isn't immediate and I guess I won't get the new service until my service renews on the 18th, even though they charged me immediately, fuckers.

So I'm just biding the time until that happens, can't really do much in the meantime, can barely even look at twitter cause it takes a minute for images to load.

Oh yeah, I forgot to say why it even matters: for whatever reason, the internet's been super slow for the past few weeks, as well as the tv service not working. It worked for one day randomly and then stopped again. My guess is cause the bill is behind, but it doesn't really make sense, why wouldn't they just shut it off instead of slowing it down so much? I guess this way is more frustrating cause it gives you hope that it might work.

It's bullshit though, because last month I paid the bill, and then the internet was out for a few days because they fucked something up, so they should've given us a free month or something. I can't do anything about it cause I'm not the account holder. Do instead I just increased the service I'm actually paying for, just shit that I still have to wait cause I can't make any money in the meantime because I can't load the survey website I use.

I really can't remember what you're responding to here, and I can't really check since I'm typing this out on mobile and I don't know if opening a new tab will delete all the text do I'll have to check later, but it's funny you mention collaborating, cause I was thinking recently "I should make a rap song and get Cyberdevil on it" but I guess I must've already had that thought since I guess that's what you're responding to lol

Also schedules can help, though take it from me, making schedules is easy, following them is hard lol

I'm doing better than I am the last time I was doing bad, so that's something at least. Every day is different though, and things can even change by the hour, bit it's up to me to stay strong and not let any negative change affect me too much.

Even if the conversation isn't relevant anymore, it'll naturally develop into new things and become relevant again ;)

Ever since March I've been trying super hard to just put out cartoons, and I think I've managed to put out at least one a month since then, though I might've missed a month, I'll have to check.

I was having good fun doing it, but ever since the FMTS 10th anniversary short I've been losing steam. The last stretch of making that really killed my enthusiasm cause everything was just going wrong. I had a ton of fun working on the William and the Worm halloween cartoon though, until it came to making the backgrounds, then my motivation just completely died. Didn't help that that's when home life was getting especially bad, but I pushed through and got it done, even if it took an extra month that it shouldn't have. That came out today btw, though it's only on youtube right now. I tried so hard to get it up on newgrounds first like I always do, but with the internet situation it was just impossible. The upload kept failing and everything I could think of to maybe get it to someone else who could upload wasn't working for the same reason, so it'll have to wait until my internet's better.

artistunknown 2020-12-13 16:38:34

Yeah, there's a lot of stuff I could and should be doing to get rid of all these issues, but it requires more money and motivation lol

I don't think I've ever specifically tried cutting out dairy, but I'm sure there's been times where I haven't eaten it since it's more expensive. I don't really eat a lot of dairy to begin with though, just a little bit of shredded cheese in my burritos and rarely some milk, though I suppose occasionally I do indulge with a grilled cheese or some cheese or just eating more cheese in general, but it doesn't really seem to make things noticeably worse do idk. I can always try cutting out dairy for a bit and see how it goes, but if I'm gonna do that I might as well go ahead and figure out what to eat instead of burritos cause what's a burrito without cheese, ya know?

Also yeah, I looked up a list of foods that were high in fiber a while ago and it seemed like most of it was stuff that wasn't really easy to get, aside from beans and spinach, which I also started incorporating into my burritos last year, and just eating more in general. I used to not like cooked spinach so I was turned off to it for the longest time, but man raw spinach is a great lettuce alternative. In fact, it's better than lettuce because unlike lettuce,it isn't ruined when it gets warm!

It sure has been a hectic year, everyone's gone crazy at some point lol

Things will get better though, and if not, well then we'll have to make them better ;)

Yeah, my phone bill was $30 for 5 gigs of high speed data, but I just needed more cause I've actually been using it for the first time since having it and this shit is unbearable lol just 2 more days until it should upgrade...

Yeah, me and Chris are always working on something together it seems. Not so much for newgrounds since his main focus has been his youtube channel, but we're still working together after 8 years.

We were thinking of doing another flash Library this month to mourn flash going away so if you're interested in that I'll see if he still wants to do it.

Also yeah man, he's been through a lot of shit but still keeps on, it's really inspiring sometimes. Bums me out extra hard when he's feeling down because of that, but he always pulls through.

The internet that's set up in the apartment is normally pretty good, just standard high speed cable internet. It's just been shit I guess because we're behind on the bill, I don't understand why they just don't shut it off though instead of slowing it down like this

I've been meaning to make more rap beats, so one day ;)

To be fair, reading and responding to these is giving me something to do while I can't watch videos, so getting mad at it would be stupid ;)

Msn I didn't wanna end that one with a ;) because the previous paragraph also ended with a ;) but nothing else felt right ;)

There's been so much stuff released this year that I've been meaning to watch and I was gonna catch up on them after I finished my latest cartoon but then the internet thing happened so that's going to have to keep waiting!!!

I'd rather a smile, I'm so tired of negativity in response to negativity lol, just continuing to talk about hardships in response to hardships is so depressing, I wanna talk about the good things that have happened and things that make me happy!!

I'm not sure if things are getting better, but the clouds are certainly clearing. Things have been okay. It's still chaotic from my nieces continuing to be children and not entirely listening to their parents, and just everyone's mental issues in general, but I'm getting better at not letting it get to me.

Now I just gotta focus and get things figured out and take better care of myself and work on becoming fully independent.

artistunknown 2020-12-13 16:43:37

Dammit Cyberdevil stop making typos!!!

I'm sure my responses are littered with them thanks to me missing my phone's autocorrect doing some bullshit but I'm too lazy to check :)

artistunknown 2020-12-17 08:53:16

I meant to respond to this before I released the new William and the Worm on newgrounds, but I forgot, sorry :')

I also put off responding until I could type it up on my pc, 'cause typing on mobile is annoying lol

As long as I keep trying I'll get somewhere eventually. The only way to guarantee failure is to not try at all.

Why have rice and beans when I can put rice and beans in a tortilla and fry it up? ;)

But ye, I will certainly start thinking about changing up my diet pretty soon, since I've been spending too much. I was so used to being able to just get $10 worth of burrito shit from walmart and it would last me a whole month, but there isn't a walmart within walking distance from me, so now I'm spending 4 times as much for the same amount of food, so I need to look at what's around and get more experimental so I can save cash, and probably eat healthier too lol. just sucks, 'cause it's nice to not have to think about what I'm gonna make. If I know I'm only gonna make one thing then i can just do it and not have to worry.

Shit, I've pretty much only been eating the spinach raw, or I guess with slight steaming from being inside the burrito while it's cooking lol

Doesn't seem like it's done anything to mess up my insides though.

Those are all good suggestions that I will keep in mind. Onions are pretty cheap and useful, but they're also one of the things that really trigger my acid reflux (it's mostly tomatoes, garlic, and onions)

Only when your data is limited and everything takes forever to load do you really start to notice how poorly optimized a lot of shit on the internet has become. Even now that my service has been renewed and my data is unlimited, I'm still noticing it, because my hotspot data is limited to 30 gigs, so I'm still mostly using my phone, especially to watch videos, but since the screen's so small, I've been watching them on pretty low quality, 'cause it still looks fine, but then when an ad plays, it's super high quality and laggy and there's no way to change the quality and it's annoying.

Chris just wrote a mixed review for one of my shitty lego videos that I made in 2009 and uploaded here in 2012, but the review was so well written that I gave a positive response to it, and I guess he was surprised by that, and kept reviewing my stuff, since I was fairly active at the time, and then we just starting messaging each other and talking about the stuff we were working on, and pretty soon we were collaborating, mainly me working on his stuff, since most of my big projects never really got off the ground, though he has done some work for me that hasn't got to see the light of day unfortunately. He helped out a lot on FrogMan and Pico at least, and well, plenty of people have seen that ;)

It's always funny when I think about how me and Chris met. It's something that could only happen on newgrounds.

I was surprised to find out later that chris is 5 years younger than me. I thought he was older than me at the time 'cause he was using a fake age on his newgrounds profile lol

I am well aware of the efforts to preserve flash, the general public is not though, and that's kinda the point, mocking the idea that flash is going away forever when it actually isn't ;)

I forgot to talk to chris about it, but now I will as soon as I finish typing this response!!!

I'm sure he'll want to, knowing that you want to. It's getting pretty late in the month though so idk how much time there will even be lol

Yeah, as fucked as it seems to say, it is always comforting to know others have it just as bad or worse than you do. It's especially motivating to see someone worse off than you that you could easily become if you don't do something to stop it. Certainly been a few times in recent memory that's happened for me.

Yeah, my immediate thought was they just slow it down instead of shutting it off because it being so unbearably slow makes you want to pay the bill more.

Me and Chris were talking about making cloud rap this morning. We were talking about making cloud rap a while ago. I should probably just make a rap album at this point, as much as I don't really listen to the genre myself, it is fun to make.

It was absolutely a compliment ;3

tbf I tend to overthink things a lot, so ya know

I guess these things are just signatures of our messaging styles. like how I love using a ton of exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

depending on the context, usually ending a sentence with an exclamation point comes off as enthusiastic to me. It does seem like most people interpret it as anger though, especially when it's a bunch of exclamation points like I do!!!!!!!!!!! but it doesn't make sense, like who would actually use that many exclamation points if they're actually angry???? it's just silly, that's why I do it when I'm trying to be sarcastically angry, but people have interpreted it as actual anger before and it just makes it funnier!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, technically I'm always on vacation since I don't really have to do anything, but then my money would run out and then I'd be forced to, and that's not good ;)

My plan for the rest of the year was just focus on doing stuff to make me happy, and I guess getting my bank account back to over $500 so I won't have to pay the dumbass account maintenance fee. Pretty close now, but I just went to the store again today so now that's back down. Should get back over it next week though.

I'm honestly not sure what else I should be doing with my time right now. Lots of things are going through my head but I can't decide on anything. That's not really anything new though lol

Yeah, I've learned that it's best to just keep my mouth shut about everything, unless someone's speaking to me directly.

I should start thinking about what I want to accomplish next year, since I don't really plan on doing much else for the rest of the year. That's just one of the things going through my head, I'll probably end up doing something else over that though, 'cause it's hard to remember everything lol

artistunknown 2020-12-17 08:57:18

I did notice the don'tr lol

I typed my last response on pc so there was probably a lot of typo's, though capitalization stuff I don't really care about lol

artistunknown 2020-12-17 08:59:40

wow I just noticed we can't edit these what the heck!!!

artistunknown 2020-12-21 07:32:33

Yeah, it was really annoying typing them on phone. Like I said though, didn't really have much else to do at the time so the fact that it took a while was kind of a bonus lol

To be fair, the most cost effective way is to just make your own. I tried making my own flour tortillas for a while last year and got okay, I could never get them thin enough though. I'd imagine it'd be easier to make corn tortillas since masa holds its shape better. I think I prefer flour tortillas, though I haven't had enough soft corn tortillas to know for sure.

I am an idiot, I meant $10 for a week of food lol. I know there's more I could make than just burritos for that much, or even less. There's some really interesting videos about living on $1-3 a day. This series in particular I always find myself coming back to https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLt_lOWx8jR_NwpE8U6humD_bKB0QxDTo4

lots of recipe inspiration to be taken from there

Different flavor/variety is always great, once stuff gets boring then you start getting bored, and that will just lead to depression again lol, so having more variety would definitely help, though I haven't got bored with the food I eat yet, it's only when I feel too physically sick to eat it, 'cause of being too backed up from constipation or whatever

"raw spinach smoothies" just makes me think of Popeye being rebooted as a vegan, drinking spinach smoothies instead of eating it from the can lol

that could actually be a decent premise for a parody...... hmmmmm

damn, one benefit to typing on mobile is I could just add emoji's if I wanted, and I wanted to put the thinking face there but I can't on PC!!! sure, I could probably look for a text equivalent to just copy and paste, but it's not the same, so instead I'll just spend more time typing this out ;)

Actually, I'm not sure how much onions directly influence it for me, I know they're just one of the big 3 in general, but I think it's mostly tomatoes and then garlic for me, I don't eat enough onions to know. Only one way to find out.............

Yeah, ads on youtube. Not really any other site I watch videos on, other than newgrounds, but there aren't video ads here so that only leaves one thing :p

Man, I miss the days when game devs had to actually work to compress their games. It's like you said, your game being some massively bloated is such a selling point now. If your game isn't at least 90 GB why even bother, right??? The real sign of a good job is absolutely how small the game is while still being jam packed with content. I don't give a fuck about the latest new generic open world shooter adventure game being 150 gigs, but I will always remember Satoru Iwata managing to optimize Pokemon Gold/Silver so much that he managed to also fit basically the entire first game on the cartridge as well. On a tiny little game boy color cartridge! Absolute legend

I think all the stuff Chris has contributed to will get finished eventually, although some of the stuff is so old that I just have to start the animation over completely from scratch, which includes work done by Chris, so that won't get seen unfortunately, I'll probably release the original versions after it's finally finished though, as a bonus, so all that work doesn't go to waste. There's a few cartoons I've started over the years that will most likely not get finished, mostly to them having very racially charged humor without a deeper purpose, and that shit just doesn't fly anymore ;)

Also I do occasionally upload abandoned cartoons that I don't intend to finish to youtube, since they're in an unfinished state it doesn't feel right uploading them to newgrounds, but I don't want the work to go to waste. It takes a lot for me to say for sure that something is cancelled though. I think there's only been two so far, although one of those was the original version of episode 6 of FrogMan the Series, which did eventually get finished after being restarted, so that one doesn't really count.

The one I'm thinking of specifically is my submission for NATA 2014 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXi3FE1koOQ , which was such a personally meaningful cartoon for me, but I completely botched the execution so it just kinda sucks so I never finished it. I had thought about re-working the story to better match my intent but eh. I will probably revisit the idea later on though.

It's funny thinking about how the people that introduced me to newgrounds I haven't talked to since middle school, but people I've met on newgrounds I'm still talking to nearly a decade later.

I don't think I've ever played any of Zanzlanz's games. I don't think I've even seen his name before but damn he's been on the site for a long time! Is the age on his profile correct? Says he's only a year younger than me lol

Man, every time I think about the Pico Day parties, I get sad that I never got to go. I was so close to being able to go in 2015, since I was moving to PA around the same time as Pico Day, though I ended up moving in the beginning of May. Still, I was only a few hours away from Philly, so I could've visited the newgrounds office at some point at least, but I never did. I didn't really have a way to get there though, so that was certainly an issue lol

I was thinking the deadline would be 12/31, but honestly, maybe it should be some time in january, though idk. It's actually a Trash Library (like the one we did for Steven Universe https://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/737781) so they don't have to have a lot of time put into them, but I'm very bad at making things fast that aren't like 5 seconds long, and the idea I have might take a while, even if the visuals are fuck awful. There's also still some other things I wanna do before the month is over, but the 31st probably still works for me, and everyone else seemed okay with it, so if that works for you then I guess that'll be it, if not then some time in january would be fine, since flash doesn't really go away until the 12th ;)

I'd hope in that case it's just because you enjoy their company lol

Yeah, cloud rap is interesting. I love ethereal, ambient shit, and it really fits the bill.

Chris has dabbled with rapping and made a few unreleased rap songs. I keep telling him he needs to finish one up 'cause they're p good. Of course I've done some shitty joke raps, especially at the 2016 new years party while incredibly intoxicated. I was spitting bars, and not vomit. Trust me ;)

Don't worry Cyberdevil, I will have you on a track one day. idk about the cloud rap since that seems like something we wanted to get done pretty quickly, but nothing's concrete so you never know

The only bad habits I have are the ones that remind me I still need to improve on things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The fact is that it's just impossible most of the time to determine tone through text, that's why when I'm talking to someone new I don't usually use my normal style of casual writing. I'll do it a bit more formally, and then get looser as we get more comfortable.

but cyberdevil lack of punctuation and proper capitalization is the best way to type

;)

To be fair, the """"freedom"""" seems to always come with the giant caviat that I'm cursed to live in a hellish chaotic household where I always want to die and that's all I can focus on so I end up not using that time wisely anyways but yeah.

Things have gotten better recently though, but it seems like it's just something that's gonna fluctuate. As long as I don't fuck up though and keep myself aware, things shouldn't be too bad.

Wow Cyberdevil, now I have to split my response too!!!

And not just because it's more convenient but because I've got less than 500 characters left (lmao like I have less than $500 in my bank account!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

artistunknown 2020-12-21 07:35:51

To be fair, the amounts were lowered recently. There's a few ways to avoid the fee, before it was an average daily balance of $1500, depositing $500 into it in a month, or making 10 purchases in a month with your debit card. Now it's been lowered to an average daily balance of $500 and the purchase option has just been removed. Which is bullshit because I might've actually not been charged this month if it were still there since I definitely made over 10 purchases!!!

I'm not sure if every bank has account maintenance fees, I know credit unions don't, but every bank I've looked at does, and this one seems to be the cheapest, though the price always depends on the account type.

But yeah, that's the unchecked capitalism of the united states for you!!!!

Other than the work I've been doing for Chris, no. I could start offering my services as a video editor I guess, since I have enough experience and work to show for that, but I don't even know how I would go about advertising that. I did want to start doing art commissions finally this year, but then I got sick for the first two months of the year and after that point I just wanted to animate. And then the pandemic happened and ever since I just didn't want to start doing commissions because I felt like it'd be wrong to be like "hey guys come buy my art while we're all dying!!!" but other artists are still doing it and people will buy art regardless so I guess I'm just stupid lol.

I will most likely start taking art commissions finally next month. I got most of the work done to start, I just gotta actually draw up the commission sheet and then yeah

Also yeah, just having more money would be nice so I don't have to worry about it running out or not being able to afford some kind of emergency.

Also I'm not actually sure what my plans are now, I kinda just realized that christmas is in a few days and I haven't even started on anyone's gifts, and I can't make any physical gifts this year 'cause I left all my art stuff at my step dad's house. I started working on a really short cartoon a few days ago and I'm hoping to finish it up today so that'll likely be my last cartoon for the year, aside from the flash library thing. I thought there was another one I wanted to make but I can't remember so maybe not.

Anything can be good in the right context ;)

I always have these big plans for the end of the year, and I never really get to see them through and usually end up rushing out some short thing just to not end the year without anything, though sometimes I just end the year without anything.

December is actually turning out to be the month with the most stuff put out from me, just 'cause the one cartoon took 3 months, and I've already released a short animation test, and now I'm gonna release another super short cartoon next weekend, and then I guess on the 31st, the flash libary. Jeez, that's like weekly uploads!!!

I'm sure if I read through these I'd notice a ton. Or maybe I'm just getting better at typing fast.

Man, what a good joke lol

Yeah, I couldn't remember if it was a feature before or not, 'cause I know you couldn't edit reviews or forum posts before, but then over time those were introduced. I guess it makes more sense that it would be something that would be taken away, whether intentionally or not, since it wouldn't make sense to still not be able to edit news post comments but being able to edit the others. Of all the things that can be edited on this site, these are the least abusable.

At least you don't have to worry about that with me, my slow ass responding 2 days later, even though I saw these almost immediately after they were posted ;)

artistunknown 2020-12-21 07:50:05

it's a good thing this was about typo's because I just noticed I said libary instead of library in that last one, right as I hit "post response"

dammit tom let us edit these!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!